It Ends Soon...

As the year is coming to an end, I've gazed over my 2007's New Year's Resolutions, and I'm impressed I did better than I was expecting: 9/15. Definitely not as good as I wanted, but I must say, some were more than one thing, aka: Read 3 books of the Bible, finish the book of Job, finish the Lemony Snicket Series, recreate my old body shape... (I got there and then I lost it. ahaha, a summer not working will do that).

Anyways, lately I've been listening to Regina Spektor due to my friend introducing me to her on a way to a party. I have to say, there are some songs that seem to change my view on life. I love those songs that change your mood suddenly and even though there are no lyrics that grab you, the tune in itself makes you want to jump up and down and say "I feel a change coming." I have to admit, if you are in the mood to feel different about life, listen to "Samson" by Regina Spektor, or "The Dumbing Down of Love" by Frou Frou (Imogen Heap in the old days =b).

When I listened to Samson, I had this urge to write. I'm not really sure what I feel like writing about, but there is definitely an urge to just go for it - to just express. We all know that most of these online journals never get read, it's not like there is some clan that reads your "work" excessively, yet it feels that you're putting yourself out there and that's good by us. To those of us who feel we are making ourselves vulnerable by letting the internet read into our souls we get that satisfaction with a still peace that says "Don't worry, no one is really reading this anyways..."

I plan to make this new year no different than the others - just with some more application rather than planning, followed by procrastination and lack of interest. I think that as my years stack up and I lose interest in life, I need to find something that grabs me - that I can stick to. Everytime I promise to write on this blog, I lose myself again. Maybe I need to find this as a way to express myself? Maybe if I had those fans that look forward to my journals or if I had more than random nonsense to write about... those "what if"s will kill you, you know.

I will leave you guys be with hopes for your futures and that these new years will actually bring something for you. Live for it all and don't let people make you live life less than to the max - when they're gone you'll hate yourself for letting their opinions stop you.
Much love and God Bless,
Emily.